WHITE, NOT MY WHITE

This is a new month and I am so happy. 

I want you to say a prayer with me. 

Father lord, I want to say thank you. Thank you for giving me another opportunity to live. Forgive me for all the sins i have committed, knowingly or unknowingly, intentional or non-intentional, I pray you continue to bless me with good things. I pray for my family and friends, for your protection. I pray for all my dreams to come true. I love you so dearly Papa. Thank you so much. 

God has been so beautiful. I have understood more things in life through him and the good people he has made me know.
This is a topic I have always wanted to write about.
A topic that will make you believe more in yourself and in many aspect of life.

White, not my white.

Colors are genuinely beautiful.
Not because I love them, but I am just being truthful.

The fact that people misuse the right colors for the right things doesn't make them dumb.
It makes them ignorantly unsatisfied.
Being different is a huge step to take.
Not comparing or being prolly fake.

Grey, purple, orange and blue.
Does this give you a clue?
On what White, not my white means?
Well, just read and be in your feelings.

White, not my white is simply a phrase, it is what I describe as a situation whereby you are trying to be someone else rather than building your tree.

The little I expect from others.
The more I am grooming myself to become better.

I can say for once in my life, I was stuck up in a place where I couldn't believe more in myself.
I was only believing in what others thought of me.

I was just 16 years old when I was trying to figure out a good future career choice for myself.
Was I as confused as a goose?
Or I just didn't let my dad choose?

My dad wanted me to study law.
it was a pressure I couldn't comprehend.
Regardless I felt I would soon have a passion for something more apart from law, a passion I hadn't noticed yet was fighting for a future I hadn't seen.

God finally led me to study media and communications.
But at a point, I wasn't living my white.
I was living another persons white.
Because I was doing certain things that didn't approve of Gods will, certain things that wasn't meant to be part of my destiny. Media and communications is a wide field whereby you can absolutely do anything relating to  the media. I was kind of confused on where I would build my most interest on so I just followed another person desires not listening to Gods words.

There was this girl I always wanted to be.
I always wanted to do what she does.
I always wanted to live her life.
Now, there is a difference in this. I am not talking about a role model.
I talking about a negative vibe. A vibe that is seriously leading to living her life when we are so much different.

Comparing myself to her made me seriously overthink lots of things.
I felt I could do anything at all, I felt I was on the right track but I wasn't.
Doing everything she does wasnt making me stronger or mature.
It was making me undeniably weak because I was neglecting my white. 

I wanted her white to be my white.

The color white is pure.
When I mean your white, I mean your destiny, your set goal, your everything and what God has in stored for you.

There are close doors, and there are open doors.
There are opportunities and there are setbacks.
There is my white and there is your white.
Now, embrace yours.

Embracing your white.
You embrace your white by putting your energy.
You need to put in Good vibes.
You need to put in happiness.
You need to allow yourself to breathe.

One thing i have heard lately from people is the word 'pessimism'
And I always say the less you believe in yourself, the lesser the opportunities and the lesser faith in God.
Ask your self questions

Do i have an alone time with myself to think?
Have i ever asked God to teach me how to grow my trees?
Have i decided to accept my white for me?
Have i decided to not compare myself?
Have i decided to understand myself?
Have i decided to know my worth?

Now, Glasses and arrows aren't means of survival.
The only means of survival is accepting you.
There are stages in this life and accepting the main purpose of why you are living now,  the betterment of your soul

From the beginning, I talked about using the right colors for right things.
You may not have the same color as others.
Some people might have peach, red, pink and it all means the same thing but different to everyone.
So be intellectual when making a decision, as a person, you need to understand that you are not perfect.
You don't need to have everything to start something.
You don't need to show fakeness to get what you want most of the time.
You need to relearn the meaning of growth and acceptance.
Redefine yourself.
You need to pray for Gods wisdom.

Choose your friends wisely, Choose good people that will sacrifice for you, love you, be there for you, pray with you, teach you, correct you, open businesses with you, people with goals and ambitions.
I am sincerely grateful for the friends I have.

I don't want to make this so long but to all those who feel depressed or sad in one way or the other.
I know You have been fighting voices in your head saying you are not enough and believing Every single lie that tells you, you will not measure up.
When the devil keeps asking you to look at your past, there is something in the future he doesn't want you to see.
That is why you are set back and unfocused.
Believing in God is the greatest pleasure anyone could ever have.
And he said 'you are worth more than many sparrows, be still and know that I am God'
You are beautiful, handsome and strong.

I have come to the end of this topic.
Be sincere and be matured.
Pray for wisdom and accept your white. 

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