THE FAILURE EXPERIENCE.

RECOUNT AN INCIDENT OR TIME WHEN YOU EXPERIENCED FAILURE, HOW DID IT AFFECT YOU? AND WHAT LESSONS DID YOU LEARN FROM IT?

So first of all I got this topic from someone and I decided to write on it. 

     Failure occurs more often than I think. Walking away seems all too appealing, giving up was an easy option even though I tried harder. It caused pessimism and brought me down. I seemed to not know the problem but I got to find out.

      At the age of 13, in my 10th grade in high school.  I lacked concentration during classes, when I was supposed to be learning, I joked around with friends, day-dreamed or just behaved lackadaisical towards my studies. Gradually I started having challenges in my subjects. My grades began to drop. I always got As and Bs in my subjects but instead I started getting Ds and  Es .But in these particular subjects ;Mathematics and Government/History, I always got an F. Should I say I hated the both subjects? Well I did not really care about the subjects but when my Principal made it known to me that it was compulsory to pass both subjects before moving to the next grade, I had to buckle up.  

           I tried so hard to pass the two subjects. I stopped my childish play and focused more on reading but things did not just change and I failed the two subjects again. I did better in the other subjects. I knew that because I started improving with Cs. I tried so hard to find out what the actual problem was but nothing was working out. Maybe I was not trying hard enough or didn’t believe in myself or was just too scared to write the same exam paper the next term because what was always on my mind was “I would still fail”.

     Then I decided to try again, I tried not to be scared when writing the exam or think too much but still I was always nervous . Unfortunately, when the results were out again, I still got an F in both the subjects. I felt like a complete FAILURE, I felt so HOPELESS. I knew I was not just going to pass the two subjects, so why try over again? I gave up.

       One day, after moments of self pity, I decided to do whatever I could to make it. I researched and got inspired from  past legends who have been down this road .As Oprah Winfrey  once said “THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS FAILURE, FAILURE IS JUST LIFE TRYIING TO MOVE US TO ANOTHER DIRECTION”. 

  Giving up was the biggest mistake I had ever made because it took me nowhere .As the saying goes “Nothing good comes easy” so I must work for it through adversity. I should have put God first because through him all things are possible. Failure is inevitable but it is the courage to try again that really matters. My mum is my role model, when she realized that I had lost so much hope, she said to me “TRY HARDER NEXT TIME AND DON’T EVER GIVE UP”. I should not have quit when it became hard but strove harder for success.  I should have believed in myself, knew what I wanted to achieve and outlined the ways to achieve them . Discipline is the habit of doing the right thing at the right time, on the right measure, in the right manner with principles, whether convenient or not. I should have been disciplined and done the right thing at the right time.  I should have been self reserved especially during the exam time. Fear was a very big hindrance to my success. It caused failure. I should have had faith in God because he never disappoints his children and most importantly I should have had faith in myself because anything and everything starts with my self belief.